The long break – Dysphoria watch – week four

I’m on my long break from work. And I’m worked up about it…. Girl at work, boy at home is my dividing line. How will I survive with minimal girl time? If the couple of weekends before Christmas are any indication, then the answer will be badly 😦

Day 22

Busy, busy, busy, busy there’s so much to do! So in between house cleaning and minecraft there’s been not a lot of time for dysphoria. Sure I’m missing being Loretta, but here at home even if I dress like Loretta, I don’t actually get to be Loretta. So there’s really no point in getting dressed up. At least I’ve figured that out.

Day 23

Another busy day, mum’s birthday lunch and more minecraft! So again not much time for dysphoria. But that’s OK. I really don’t want dysphoria I just want to be Loretta at some stage.

Day 24

I miss being Loretta. But I think I’ve resolved that there is no point in dressing up as Loretta if I’m not going to actually be her. Besides I don’t have many days left to get things done around the house so I’m busy busy busy! No time to dwell on dysphoria.

Day 25

Another day without Loretta. I’m sad about that but I’m just going to struggle through. Dysphoria is still only mild and could best be described as melancholy.

Day 26

Loretta time 🙂 Yay! I spent some time with mum as Loretta today and that was really nice. And Loretta got to pick up her bicycle after about a month! The boys in the shop didn’t bat an eyelid and were perfectly fine with it all. So a really good day…and no dysphoria…just warm fuzzies 🙂

Day 27

Busy busy busy busy! There’s so much to do. Dysphoria? Who’s got time for that? At least I got to go to the Opera house to see a live show……78 storey tree house no less. Followed up of course with Mamak and N2. Mmmmm yummy!

Day 28

Busy busy busy busy! There’s so much to do. No not a carbon copy of day 27 or 22 or 23. But still no time for dysphoria. Lots of cooking today and I need to fit in a haircut. And if there’s time I need to pack!

So I survived another week. But it looks like I only survived because I was too busy to dwell on dysphoria. One and a half weeks to go….and this might be the toughest time for me.

Photo by Jeremy Thomas


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s