In my last post I talked about ‘being a girl’ rather than just looking like one. And of course I had trouble explaining what that meant. I guess what I really meant was ‘being Loretta’ who is a girl.
Of course there are a myriad of things that I have embraced and/or practised on my journey of being Loretta. But even though I’ve learnt and practised all of these things, this question still exists, “Is ‘Loretta’ just an act?”
On the surface of it all I do a whole bunch of things that actors do. I do the wardrobe thing, the makeup thing, the wig thing. And I do vocal training and try and try to work on my deportment.
To an extent you could say that I’ve embraced method acting. I’m actually Loretta for huge chunks of the day. Although I guess method actors are being whomever for as long as the performance lasts.
The key difference, however, is the ‘being Loretta’. I’m actually not playing, or pretending to be someone else. It’s not an act. It’s just me being the girl me. I don’t have a made up background. I have my background. I have my wants and desires, not someone else’s, not pretend ones. They’re mine.
So for me, this is what makes me real. I’m not an act. When I’m Loretta I’m just being me. 😊