It must be Spring, everything is growing. My hair is growing longer, my fingernails are getting longer, my boobs are…….. just the same as they always are. They’re silicone, they don’t grow.
The girl in me is pushing my boundaries, and I’m not pushing back this time as I usually do. These aren’t ground-breaking boundaries but they all push me further into the world of girldom.
I’ve consciously made the decision to grow my hair. I’m past halfway down my ears now. And I’m keeping on going. It’s already longer on the sides than it’s ever been. I did have a sort of mullet a long time ago so it has been longer at the back, but I’m planning for it to be longer.
And I’m planning for a manicure this week. Complete with a nail shape and French tips. OMG! I really think I’m enjoying this. I really must be a girly girl.
I mean these are just some more steps on the journey that I’m on. Laser hair removal, eyebrow shape and tint are other regular steps on the way. And I’m loving it.
It’s going to be pretty impossible to hide my nails when I’m in boy mode but I have to do this. I’ve stopped myself from doing things like this so often, because it’s not what boys do. But I’m stepping up and owning my transgenderness. I can do this because it’s what I want to do. And I’m not letting society’s ‘values’ stop me this time.
I am me. And I need to be true to myself. And that means that I’m going to indulge my inner girl. I’m going to experience all of those girl things that I’ve wanted to try.